I am in the verge of giving up

I am 19 and i got introduced to trading 2 years ago and got series about it like a year ago i was more active on the crypto world i was trying to creat a strategy that works after a lot of work i did that and after testing it for a while i started trading a month ago i started with 20 dollars i got from working some small jobs i can find and an air drop( i know the money is low that's because i leave in Ethiopia our currency is weak) the first 2 weeks were really good made good profit i turned that 20 to 63 dollars the trump got elected it made the market bull and i made the 63 to 150 that was my goal because (i was planning to buy a laptop because i couldn't continue on working the one i am right now because it is my dads company computer and he is violating the rules leaving at home some times for me to work on it) but i thought i can buy a better computer than i thought i was thinking to buy a chip android pc but i thought i can get hp elite book for 250 so i continued to trade got 176 dollars and all things turned to hell my phone broke and i had to take 55 dollars to get it fixed after that my strategy stopped working because the market is consolidating type of movement and btc influence was so big on other coins if btc got down the others followed i don't know what to do any more i only have 20 days to buy a pc that's the time i asked my dad to give me and i lost it all i don't know what to do my education will be cut i am studying to join the big trading world forex(i know i can trade and learn by my phone and i have tried to but it's so much harder and now even more because it lages a little)i don't know what to do or say i have been walking for more than 2 hours thinking of going out in a wallstreet Style (jump of the tallest building i can find) i got no one to help me some family i had in the usa won't even send me a book that i asked them once let alone help me to buy a pc my current job only pays 4000 birr (35 dollar) a month with transportation and other bills in at the end of the month nothing is left i am just lost i have never been low like this i have never thought about giving up ever until now i don't know what to do i am alone i have never felt this alone in my entire life any advice or help